Hey guys, how’s it going, ya girl here, and, I gotta say, I’ve learned more about self worth in the last week than I have in my entire life. I have had a pretty tough year and have been unable to find a steady job for most of it, which is infuriating as I have devoted the majority of each day to making myself employable. Those who follow this blog know that I am not one to back down from hard work, even if it means learning a new language in order to make sure an opera is able to run with minimal errors.
Well, a few days ago, I finally got a good job within my field of study, after my father asking me every week “why don’t you use your degree?” as if I took my certificate and used it for toilet paper. What happens after that? My family member asked me if I hadn’t gotten a job because I was addicted to drugs. Honestly, folks, I have never felt more shame in my life. I had been working so hard to support myself and never ask for help, only to be told that it looked like I was an addict. What is a Satanist to do? One who strives for nothing more than being their best self?
Ignore them. Succeed on your own. Even after those who said they were there for you and were proud of you have decided to wait and watch you fail without lending a hand until they thought you were at rock bottom. Nobody except you knows how hard you’re working because nobody is paying 100% attention to you. And you know what? That’s okay. Nobody owes you their full attention because they, too, are trying to reach their full potential.
To spite the people who think I am failing, I am going to thrive without them and then move on.
I hope to post more now that I’ve gotten a job and will have more time to dedicate to this blog. Well see, though, since this is just me yelling into the void most of the time.
I appreciate each and all of you Darling Devil’s