It’s the New Year!

New Year, new round of posts. Due to some unfortunate computer problems, I was unable to do as much as I wanted during the Christmas season, but that’s okay because I have a really great interview for you, as well as more questions going out soon, so keep an eye open. I would also like to say thank you to anybody who put me in the running for Wicked Witch of the Year, I am so honored.

So, onto the interview. I would like to start off by reminding people that not everybody I interview has Satanic values, is a Satanist, or shares my personal values. I started doing these interviews to appreciate those Satanists around us AND to better understand those different than us.

I would also preface this interview by saying that the person doesn’t speak English fluently, just an FYI. I am also not going to name them here, if they want to share the interview on their personal accounts, I’m fine with that.

Now, give a warm welcome to the person behind an account that started because a Twitter troll wanted to call Satanic women sluts (like, not in the fun way), in this instillation of:

end of MY rope


1) What is your relationship with the Church of Satan? 

I consider myself free. I have my onw opinion on everything.
I don’t believe politicians and religious. They think their ideas are better than anyone else. But they don’t follow their own rules, because it’s impossible.
Gods, spirits etc were invented by people during prehistoric times. They couldn’t explain what causes day and night, what causes seasons, why rain, storm and thunder exist.
They created stories: mythology.
The world has changed, everything has changed. Religion is mythology 2.0. Kids believe in santa but the brain and thinking ability change with age: they understand that’s impossible.
In catholic schools, they learn fantastic things. Their stories are similar to Game Of Thrones or Hercules The Legendary Journeys. Many people are formatted.
Religious people themselves don’t follow their own rules: they judge, they make wars, they don’t care about others, they are scared of difference etc
I discovered the Church of Satan on the internet. I asked myself why people follow Satan. I have read the website and it was very interesting.
This is an official religion. They are free thinkers. They believe in themselves. They are against satanist theists. They use Satan as a symbol of rebellion against religious rules.
Then, I followed them on social networks and discovered many inspirational people. I’ve talked with some of them, I like to know why they are Satanists, their stories are amazing.
I don’t know if I can call myself a Satanist because I’m not an official member, but I respect the Eleven Satanic Rules. They are a part of my personality.
2) Describe the page you run on Twitter. 
I created @Satans_Girls when a random guy/girl attacked Satanists on Twitter. He/she used words like “unholy”, “pervert”, “possessed”. That makes no sense.
He/she doesn’t know these people and their personality.
I want to promote these harassed people because they inspire a lot of person. I post some quotes and I make artworks for free.
In fact, I consider religion as a problem and Satanism/Atheism as a solution.
Those people deserve more followers than the Pope.
3) What is the best Halloween costume you’ve ever worn and why?
The best Halloween costume I’ve worn when I was 18 and I went as the Grim Reaper.
The reaper is immortal and decides who lives and dies. I would like to get this power for what is right.
Probably my favourite mythical creature before the Four Horsemen of the Apocalypse.
4) What do you like to do for your birthday? 
For my birthday I enjoy having my family and my friends at the same time. It’s like Christmas and the New Year Eve on the same day.
5) Do you have any pets? If so, how do you like to spoil them? If not, do you have a dream pet?
Thanks to my mother I am an animal lover. When I was a child we had a big house, a goat, rabbits, two geese, two dogs and many cats.
Losing an animal is very, very difficult.
That’s why I don’t have pets today, I don’t support the end..
6) What inspires you? 
People who enjoy life, people who do what they like, brave people, people who help others.
People with those qualities are our best hope for a better world.
7) Are you currently working on anything interesting either professionally or creatively? 
I’m working for a software company. I teach people to use a computer and internet, I give conference tips and presentations about internet and cybersecurity, I make photos and videos. I really like my job.
I also like magic, card handling, illusions and I would like to be a professional magician, having my own show with a lot of resources must be fun!
8) What TV show has captured your attention recently? 
I discovered La Casa de Papel, Breaking Bad and Mentalist a few months ago. Story, actors, everything is great!
Mentalist has a special place, some friends called me Patrick Jane during many years cause I have a similar personality, I like watching people, I try to understand everyone and I use NLP (Neuro-linguistic programming) to speak with them.
I had never watched this show until this summer.
9) Do you have any tattoos? 
I don’t have any tattoos, this is a hard decision and I don’t want to regret it later.
But I really like to watch tattooed people. Some tattoos are better than painting in museums.
A body can become a work of art.
10) Describe your ideal vacation. 
My ideal vacation is Japan. Mix of both traditional and modernity, discipline, japanese mentality, few crimes, big cities, food, temples.
I would love to live in Tokyo, this is my dream.
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Thanks for hanging out, you Darling Devils. I’ll see you soon!

The Seven Sins of Christmas (Greed)

On the first day of Christmas, my true love gave to me, some knock-off apple air pods. But why didn’t he get the real ones?

Yeah, people like to say that Christmas is about Jesus or whatever other Holiday. Others say it’s about family, which it is! But we can’t deny that there is a little monster inside of every one of us that loves to get gifts. We all want things and the idea that somebody might get you something you don’t want to buy yourself is an amazing idea.

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Also, quiet down back there Karen, we all know that when you say “I prefer to GIVE gifts!” you actually mean “I hunger for praise and thanks!”, so don’t act like you’re not also a greedy bastard.

I don’t mean to hate on Christmas, I love Christmas. I also really love getting and giving gifts, it’s a big part of the holiday. That doesn’t mean that we can’t also nod and say, Yes, I do want things. There’s nothing wrong with greed as long as it doesn’t control you.

The entire Holiday Season is about eating huge amounts of food! We shovel Thanksgiving Turkey and Christmas Ham into our faces, finishing it off with mashed potatoes and other heavy, fatty foods. It’s amazing.

cake on table

Even here! I said in my last post that I was gonna see you tomorrow but then I didn’t. Why? Greedy with my time. I have stuff to do, it’s halfway to Christmas! So, meet me back here next week when I cover the next Sin of the Season!

I’ll see you later, my Darling Devils!



It’s Time to Talk about the Real Meaning of Christmas

It’s December and that means the Christmas decorations are up in my household! I’ve got snowflakes hanging fro the ceiling and taped to the windows, lights are up, and a tree will be coming into the house shortly.

macro shot photography of christmas stockings ornament on a christmas tree

Christmas is on of my favorite holidays all year for a few reasons. For one thing, it’s basically Thanksgiving 2.0 at my family’s various parties because we all make the same dishes. What’s great is that the family is so large, we end up having a party for half the family on Christmas Eve, a smaller party Christmas Day with the closer family, and then a final party that night with other half of the family. Each of these parties has the traditional foods and rituals we all follow year after year. They’ve evolved slightly, but have largely remained the same.

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Now, I know that some Satanists take pains to go against anything that may have been even lightly brushed with the taint of one of the Ahberhamic religions, and that’s fine, they have the right to do that, I just don’t think it’s all that big of a deal if a Satanist says “bless you” or puts a star tree topper up. You wanna know why? Because Christmas isn’t about Jesus anymore. You wanna know what it does celebrate? Say it with me, The Seven Deadly Sins!

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Not my dog, sadly

I know I only recently did a whole look into the sins, but there’s something about Christmas that just gets me all excited for them again! So, I will be looking into each one of the individually and how they pertain to Christmas, that way we can get over ourselves and jump into the holiday! Don’t worry this won’t all be negative because, as I said earlier, I love Christmas. Used to hate it, now I’ve fallen back in love.

I hope everyone out there is safe and sound this holiday season. If any of my readers traditionally don’t do Christmas, then happy that. I don’t know. I’m a white woman from rural Washington, chill.

Have a great day and I’ll see you tomorrow for our first Sin!




We All Have Our Own Step One

Satanism is a religion of bettering ones self and improving the situation in which we find ourselves. That is sometimes on a very personal level, other times it’s global. No matter what, it’s up to you.

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If you were to ask me where I plan on being in whatever amount of years, I might paint a picture of a small house with a job that allows me enough time for hobbies and reaching other personal goals. Asking another Satanist the same question may result in a picture of a second private jet or finally being able to afford to get a tattoo.

The one thing that each of these people has in common is that they are starting up the staircase to achieving a life they’re happy with. That’s what really matters when you look around and take in your life. Are you happy with it? How can I make it better?


If you’re reading this, you may already be a Satanist and are probably saying “Lauren, I know all of this already”. Well good for you, are you actively engaging in the idea? or maybe “Lauren, you haven’t posted in forever, how dare you?” to which I say, I was busy with other projects.

Does that mean I am happy with where I am right now? No, there’s things I want. I am going to take steps upwards towards these dreams until I am finally exactly where I want to be. Remember, Satan is a fictional, external representation of ones best self, free from Abrahamic Religions.

It’s good to speak to you, my Darling Devils.



Misery is Bliss

The lights dim and smoke rolls through the room as a ghost-like bride leads a grim groom to the stage as she swings a puffing thurible. They sit, a ghostly light casting sharp shadows upon their faces. The show begins.

The Main Events

This is the beginning of the end that is The Wedding Funeral, a show that is touring across The United States and leaving misery (read as joy) in its wake. Seriously, this show made me smile, gave me chills, and, at one point, made my eyes water. I was amazed.

The theatrics enhanced the music and the music seamlessly meshed with the design. Darren’s mastery of the guitar matched with Ethel’s haunting saws creates an atmosphere that, alone, would tickle the senses. Then starts the lyrics I am completely entranced with the music that is meeting my ears. I had never heard anything like it.

Cutest Couple in the World award winners 2019

The Wedding Funeral made me feel as though I was in a Broadway production, a Ritual Chamber, and a Rock Concert all at the same time and I cannot recommend it enough. If it’s coming within 100 miles of you, I expect you to go and let me know what you think.

Thank you, Darren and Ethel, for bringing this beautiful music to the world. Hail you both!




The Floor is LAVA

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You remember that game some kids would play where you’d have to get somewhere or something without touching the floor? When’s the last time you played that game? Or any other game from your childhood?

At some point during our lives, we decided that games of imagination were below us somehow and decided to stop playing them. We’re told to grow up and act our age.

Well, I’m here to tell you that’s bullshit and the floor is lava. I was out with my friends last night and we ended the night at the bar that my Boyfriend’s sister owns. It was just five of us in there, all scattered around the bar, so, without thinking, I yelled “THE FLOOR IS LAVA”.

Guys, I wish you could have seen the looks of confusion and excitement that painted the faces of the companions. We shouted at each other when they were in “danger” and came up with ways to work together and get people to the safe point. It was an amazing time and when it was over, we all felt like we had just been transported back to age 12 and our moms were about to come tell us it was time to go. But we’re all in our mid-twenties to thirties, so we took a shot and played air hockey instead.

Am I saying go out there and be a dick or whine at people? NO! All I’m saying is that you shouldn’t let your childhood go.




I Interview a Satanist Renewed

Good evening, my lovelies. Since it is going into spring time, I began to think about growth and new beginnings. Spring time is when animals start having their new babies and trees start getting new buds on their branches. With this idea of growth and renewal in mind, I decided to interview a member of the Church of Satan who is going through a process of redefining and growing into themselves. Put your hands together for a friend of I’m a Satanist And… Gwen!

Stolen from Facebook (Wonderful picture) 

All that being said, I am so very thankful to Gwen for being the latest installment in…

end of MY rope

1) How’s life?

Better than I could have ever imagined since starting to transition, I didn’t know what I was missing out on!

2) Have you had any interesting or exciting experiences since starting transitioning? 

More “funny” than interesting, I’ve had people not notice the physical changes, despite them being very obvious (along with me wearing female clothing etc).
One conversation I basically asked them if they’d noticed the changes, they said “your hair is longer?” – and I had to point at my tits (seriously) until they clicked that it was more than just hair being longer.
I was wearing a long flowing dress at the time too…..
3) Will how you celebrate your birthday change this year? 
I haven’t decided fully yet, but something to do with 32-bit computing and femaleness – I’m still a geek at heart
4) What’s your favorite way to relax after a long day? 
Coding something (currently working on an OS kernel), a bit of gaming or TV – often with a nice cold drink and a snack.
5) What do you say to Satanists who are anti-LGBTQA+? 
“You aren’t Satanists” – seriously, people who don’t get that obviously never read LaVey’s work.
6) What did you grow up masterbating to? (Reader submitted: feel free to submit your own in the comments!) 
I plead the 5th!
Ok, a few random girls I liked in school (sidenote: that held me back for years, I thought i couldn’t be trans cos I liked girls) and Sarah Michelle Gellar and a few other random celebs.
7) What’s the biggest change in your daily life thus far since beginning to transition?
Practical stuff mainly – taking my HRT meds (not a big change really, I already swallowed a bunch of nootropics and supplements daily for health reasons), different clothing, and applying makeup if I’m going out somewhere.
8) Has your relationship with the Church of Satan changed since your began the transition process? 
Not yet, I haven’t got a formal diagnosis of gender dysphoria yet, once I have that i’ll be applying for a new card.
9) What’s the stupidest driving law in the place in which you (generally) live? 
Not a clue, I don’t drive.
10) What is your favorite guilty pleasure song you would never admit to anyone else? (Reader submitted: feel free to submit your own in the comments!)
crawling by Linkin park – edgy emo teenage crap, but I first heard it when I was a very emo teenager, and if you watch the video it kinda makes sense why I related to it……..
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I hope you are all having a great day and enjoyed this installment in The Infernal Interviews! I’ll see you soon, my darlings.