I Love Painting

Hey there, everybody! I hope you are enjoying your summer! I have been taking time to relax and start getting ready for the next school year, which has been wonderful. Also, Fourth of July was AMAZING and I’m going to be doing a post here soon on why it’s a Satanic holiday.

But today, I want to talk about painting! Here’s what you need to know: I am a garbage painter. I absolutely suck at it. I took a Theatre class a while ago where we needed water colors in order to complete the Costume Design homework and once that class was done I still had all these supplies. So, I tried just painting for fun.

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See?

And it was fun! It’s calming and creative and I don’t have to use the thinking part of my brain for a while. The paper never ends up looking like the image I have in my brain, but that’s okay.

I’m not looking to get rich or famous from painting. I do it for myself. It has become a sort of ritual time for me and I don’t have to worry about if it’s good because I can always just toss them out later. Nobody has to see them.

I’m posting some here so you guys can see what I’m talking about.

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I call this one “The Fuck?” 

The point I’m trying to make here is that you don’t have to be good at something to enjoy doing it. There’s a lot of activities I have zero skill in that I still do, such as singing and dancing. Well, I mean I can’t club dance. I Blues like a mofo.

I know that I get really nervous doing something I’m not good at, even if it is something I like. It takes time for me to be comfortable singing in front of people or even showing them my poems, even though that’s something I’m good at.

So do what makes you happy, friends. As long as you aren’t hurting anybody or anything, go do what makes you happy. Paint a picture, write a story, go fishing, bake a cake, whatever! You don’t have to be good at something to enjoy it.

Have a lovely weekend, my Lovely Lucifers.

HS!

LH

I Want to Introduce You to One of My Heroes

So, if you’ve been following this blog for a while, you would have probably (Hopefully) read my blog posts about Lighting Design and Teaching. Well, I didn’t end up where I am by accident. I got here by working hard and loving what I do. Technically my degree is in Creative Writing, so most people think I’m going to be an English Teacher or a starving writer, but I’m not really using it in either of my jobs.

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RUN DAVE!

As a Lighting Designer and a Drama Teacher, I am one of those few who can actually say that I make my money through theatre. I started my career in community college and had only briefly worked backstage in a high school production my freshman year. Well, Until I met Dave.

Dave was my Theatre and ASL Teacher in Community College and, the first week of class, pointed at me and informed me that I was the Stage Manager. I loved it! I ended up finding myself drawn towards the lighting aspect of the stage, though, and that’s now what I introduce myself as. I have thought about doing an SM job at some point soon… I digress.

Dave is so amazing, though, beyond just being one of my Teachers. He is Director, Actor, and Writer with titles such as Rescuing Awen, Guild of Immortal Women, and Angakok.

Oh and he likes to float around under water breathing canned air. I only make it sound strange because I am hugely jealous at what he gets to do and see when he is going scuba Diving. More amazing than that, Dave is a PADI instructor at Seattle Scuba who is gay friendly and will teach you in ASL if that’s how you prefer to learn.

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Damn you, Dave.

So, if you want to check out more about my wonderful, director, mentor, fellow actor, and friend, you can check out his website here.

For now, let’s dive into his actual brain in this entry of…

end of MY rope

with David Alan Morrison

1) What do you like to do with your free time?

I have a lot of varied interests. I wish i could chalk it up to being an interesting man, but the truth is more mundane…I’m restless and A.D.D. I spend a lot of time directing community theatre, line dancing and 2-step (country/western dancing). I used to do quite a bit of scuba diving, but a while ago, my apartment burned down and I lost my equipment. I still haven’t replaced it all.
2) Are there any creative projects you are working on right now?

I’ve been doing two things: 1) making edits to my middle-grade book, RESCUING AWEN and 2) outlining a new book I’m working on. Unfortunately it’s going slowly, though. I keep getting hung up on how much (and what kind of) sex to put into a “romance”. (Thoughts, readers?)
3) Tell me about your books.
I would love to do that! I have four books out: a middle-grade book, RESCUING AWEN, a memoire, TRAVELS WITH PENNY; OR, TRUE TRAVEL TALES OF A GAY GUY AND HIS MOM; a Magical Realism, GUILD OF IMMORTAL WOMEN; and ANGAKOK, a gay-themed suspense thriller. RESCUING AWEN is one of my favorites – it’s about a sentient planet that is dying from pollution and ecological disaster. She gives a young Earthling super powers in an attempt to heal her. TRAVELS WITH PENNY is a popular one with women – especially mothers. It centers around coming to grips with the definition of “family” and how it effected my coming out process.
4) Give me the craziest drama you’ve experienced in your theatre career.

So many! Probably doing an original one-act in a local pub – we used the alley in back as our dressing room. Not only embarrassing, but the night it rained, it made for a very wet evening.
5) What is your interpretation of Satanists?

I’m not sure. I haven’t had enough exposure to know. I don’t believe in “hell” or “satan”, so I reject the idea that it is worshiping some kind of “evil spirit”. I also reject that it is akin to what some refer to as “Black Magic”. I think of realists; those who understand that for every YIN there is a YANG and every good deed, there is a bad. Which means Satanists can see the order in chaos; the sanity within the insanity of today’s world. Rather than throw personal power aside and let “Jesus Take The Wheel”, they choose to exercise their power of choice and forge their own way amongst the fucked up-ness we see around us. Am I right? What do I win? (Five Starts for Dave: 𖤐𖤐𖤐𖤐𖤐)
6) Do you have a religion you subscribe to?
I follow a belief system most people call “Pagan”. It’s actually a combination of traditional Paganism and Taoism . I believe that there is a series of events that we have no control over, as life is a complex combination of the fates of all humans. That belief, mixed up a devout belief that humanity is tied to our Earth – makes for an interesting lifestyle.
7) Which celebrity (dead or alive) is your dream man?

I’m not too picky – I have quite a few of “wanna haves”: although I must admit, 1970’s Burt Reynolds was pretty hot.
8) Tell me your favorite joke.

I can’t – it’s a joke I learned in American Sign Language and has no direct English translation. Besides – jokes are so firmly rooted in culture, that while Deaf people may think it’s hysterical, Hearing people won’t get it.
9) What is the most amazing thing you’ve seen while diving?

An ancient Sea Turtle who floated just feet from me, chowing down on some underwater plants. He seemed totally unfazed by me and my fellow divers. Such grace! The creatures are amazing.
10) What in your life are you most proud of?

I am *tremendously* proud of students who I have taught who have then gone on to great success. Whether it be using their theatre education, or sign language, I fill with pride when I hear from them and they tell me how I helped kick-start their future.

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Dave is really one of the best people I’ve ever met and can either be the nicest person in the world or a total bitch, depending on if he likes you or not. Or if he’s hungry… or hasn’t had a soda for a while… LOVE YOU, DAVE!

That’s it for now, kids! I’ll see you all tomorrow, a day further down the left hand path.

HS!

LH

It’s Wonderful

One of the things I always envied about religion was the sense of community they had. Each time I would go to church I would see people talking and checking up on each other. When they said “I’ll pray for you”, I heard “I’m here for you”. That was my first mistake because what they meant was “I’ll have you in my thoughts but will personally do nothing to help. Let’s see what the man in the sky does!”

But still! They had a sort of extra family and with how crazy my family is, that sounded pretty great. Still, I didn’t exactly want to meet every Sunday at 7am Bible Study to talk God and all that jazz, so I got a little excited when I found Satanism.

Well, sorta. The Grotto system sounded cool to me at first, but then I realized that they aren’t really a thing anymore. BUT, once I started finding my little group of Internet Satanists, I realized that I was able to find people who supported me and would share ideas with me and who would debate with me over various topics.

My community got even larger as I started this blog and began to interview people. I love presenting these amazing Satanists to you so that they can be held up as a positive example of the religion we share. Each one of them shows how two Satanists are alike and we come to the Church of Satan in out own way. It’s wonderful.

So, with my little speech out of the way, here’s the latest entry in…

end of MY rope

Welcome, to Warlock Jeff Bowling!

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HAHA I found this on twitter for I am a wizard!

1) How long have you been a Satanist?

I know it has become a cliché to say that one is born a Satanist but, I honestly believe that. My entire life I have lived by the philosophy that is Satanism. For many years I did not know that was what I was doing, it just came naturally. As I grew, matured and studied more, those ideas became more firm in my mind. Then, in 1999, I finally read “The Satanic Bible” by Anton Szandor LaVey. Everything clicked almost instantly. I realized that there was at least one other person on the planet who thought like me, who viewed the world through the same lens I did. I knew then, that I was a Satanist and haven’t looked back since. When I turned 18, I joined the Church of Satan, and haven’t looked back from that either.

2) Have you received any backlash professionally from people finding out?

No, I haven’t.

I have always been smart about “tucking the Baphomet” in professional circles. There was simply never a reason for anyone I worked with, to know. Occasionally, people would find out through various means, or I would let them in on the open secret for one reason or another but, by that point I had developed a solid, unassailable reputation in whatever place of employment I was in, and it was more of an interesting talking point than anything that someone would hold against me. The one exception to that was when I was enlisted in the Army. I ended up leading an “alternative” religious group in Baghdad, Iraq and because of that role, my Chain of Command had to be brought up to speed. Fortunately, the officers and NCOs I worked under were true professionals and did not have a negative thing to say, nor did they hold me back in anyway.

These days, my career is almost solely focused on entertainment such as: music, acting, wrestling, etc. In this case, it has actually become beneficial to be known as a Satanist so, ever the opportunist, I cash in on that every chance I get. This has also opened the door for me to be more publicly involved with the Church of Satan, which is why my name and face have been popping up so frequently over the last few years.

3) What would you name a camel if you had one for a pet?

I always end up naming my pets after famous cartoon, comic book or video game characters. So, I think I’d name my camel “Joseph” after Joe Camel (or Old Joe, as he was originally known) from the Camel cigarette ads.

4) Are you working on any creative projects at the moment?

Let’s see, currently, I am:
– Writing new music for my punk/metal band Slave to Reality

– Working on the debut album, short film and some other things for my solo multimedia project Embrace the Forbidden

– Recording the first set of interviews for a new storytelling podcast specifically for outsiders called “Historia Infernalis”

 

– Collaborating with the fine folks in The Satanic Players Society as the opportunity arises (If you ever need an amazing Lighting Designer, hit me up)

and, a few other writing and film projects that are not ready to be announced yet.

In addition to those purely creative projects, I also:

– Co-host “Good Mourning America” (a Satanic perspective on politics and current events) on the Third Side Network

and,
– Co-host “Study, Not Worship” (an in-depth look at the Church of Satan canon) which is coming soon

Another project I am currently working on, that I am the most proud of, is the Infernal Legion. The IL is a veterans service organization made up solely of Satanic veterans and run by Church of Satan members. Born on Veterans Day last year, our goal is to provide service, support and camaraderie to service members, veterans and their families, with a special emphasis on those veterans who are also Satanists, or the “Elite Among the Alien Elite” as we call them.

I obviously like to stay busy.

5) Describe a powerful Lesser Magic moment.

When I was fresh out of the Army, there was a job I really wanted through a private security contractor. While I had a decent resume, I did not have the experience the company wanted for this particular position. So, I applied for a lower position but intentionally designed my resume to make me look overqualified. Then, I spent two weeks investigating the interviewer. I found out every little detail I could about her, and turned myself into what I imagined she would see as the perfect candidate for the position I was secretly going for. By the end of the interview, I had not only been offered the job I wanted (experience be damned) but, I had also gotten her personal contact information and set up a date for a week later.

6) What is your dream house?

This is actually a pretty difficult question to answer. There are houses that I love looking at, such as Old Victorian homes, castles, unique mansions, etc. I especially love anything with hidden rooms, multiple wings and odd angles. I also love the idea of isolation. A beautiful little cabin in the woods, or a hut on a beach somewhere. However, I am a wanderer at heart. The idea of settling down somewhere permanently, is almost unthinkable. There is always somewhere else to go, something else to see, another adventure to be had. I cannot really see a house in my imagination that I would say, “Yes, that! I would be happy there forever!” So, I guess my dream house would be a fully-loaded, top of the line RV, so that I can keep on rolling to the next town, state or country when I feel the call of the road.

7) Tell me about your last nightmare.

 

I think it is important to note that I like scorpions. They are incredible little creatures and I am not the least bit scared of them. However, the last nightmare I had involved an entire army of scorpions.

I had found myself in an abandoned house that did not seem the least bit familiar. Myself and some of my close friends were all there together. We were doing repairs, painting, laying new carpet, a total renovation project. I don’t know if someone was moving into this house, or we were all working as contractors, I’m not really sure what the story was with that but, there we were, renovating this house.

I was in the process of tearing down a wall with a sledgehammer. The first strike barely cracked the drywall, which is obviously weird. The second cause it to splinter a little bit more. I set the sledgehammer down and peered into the crack to find out what the wall was made of.

Out of the crack came a tiny, brown scorpion with a red streak across its back. I thought it was really odd, I called out to let everyone know what I had found but, I could not take my eyes off of this scorpion. I kept trying to get a closer look.

One of my fellow laborers called out from the other side of the room, “What did you find?” I looked over and told him, then turned my attention back to the scorpion. Apparently, that action had pissed it off. It had turned to face me, claws open, tail ready to strike. It was at this time that I realized the red streak was actually a sash of some sort.

It tried to sting me and I jumped back. Then the wall practically exploded. The crack ripped open and thousands of these brown scorpions poured out. There were small ones and large ones, all brown and all wearing red sashes. My friend cursed and ran, I followed him, grabbing the sledgehammer on my way out.

As we made our way to the next room, I noticed cracks forming on all the walls, and scorpions beginning to make their way out of them. We joined up with the rest of the party and tried to get out of the house but, the doors and windows wouldn’t open and the scorpions were advancing on us.

I took up a defensive position, ready to swing the sledgehammer and stomp as many of them as I could.

Then I woke up. It was a really strange dream but, unless the next scorpion I see is wearing a red sash, I don’t think I really have anything to worry about.

8) How do you like to celebrate your birthday?

My Birthday usually ends up being about a 3 week event. It varies every year but, I always try to schedule a show because I love performing. I also go to the movies, eat out quite a bit and bar hop like crazy. The marathon usually ends with a few friends and I sitting around a fire pit, nursing hangovers and swapping stories.

9) Do you think being a Satanist changes how you drive?

Hahaha! I’ve never really thought about it. I don’t know what driving as a non-Satanist is like so, I can’t say for certain but, there is certainly no more appropriate time for Rule #11 to be in effect. Honestly

though, I drive the same way I walk or ride a bike, with a purpose. I have somewhere to be, so do you. We have to share this piece of road at the moment, so let’s not get in each other’s way.

10) What is something you’d like Non-Satanists to know about Satanists?

Well, there is the normal stuff like we don’t sacrifice babies or animals, we don’t believe in Satan as an anthropomorphic deity, etc. To be quite honest though, that information has been publicly available since 1966. There are hundreds of books, interviews, podcasts, essays, public statements and other ways to find out about what Satanism isn’t. Do some research.

If there is one thing I think it is important for non-Satanists to understand, it is that we don’t want to convert them. My worldview is mine alone. I don’t care what they do at their church (or other place of worship), and I have no desire to show them what happens in my ritual chamber. You either are a Satanist, or you are not, and the odds are highly in favor of the latter.

Other than that, to paraphrase Magus Gilmore, I wish them all the best on their path in life, I know I’m certainly happy on mine.

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Keep supporting each other, my lovelies. I don’t even mean just Satanists- Lift up those who are trying to change the world for the better.

HS!

LH